Teachers have so much power, especially those that teach young children. Teachers inspire us, construct our way of thinking, and they can even act as second parents. I really admire what they do for children everyday, but with great power comes great responsibility (love me some Marvel!).
When I was in elementary school all my teachers would give us report cards with messages to our parents. I would do well in school, but there was always the “she’s smart, but quiet”. Receiving these comments when you are in 2nd grade and don’t know about personality types or how people can be different, you tend to only hear “my teacher thinks I’m not normal”.
During class teachers would make sure to call on me or bring me to the front of the class to present. I started to get anxiety because I knew why they were picking on me and I kept thinking, maybe everyone in the class thinks the same. I began to think I was so different from everyone else, I didn’t want to participate in discussions anymore I felt people were judging me.
My teachers would constantly say that when you grow up you won’t be able to get a job if you’re quiet. I remember I used to raise my hand in my younger years when I had something to say, but completely stopped. When adults keep beating you down about being shy or quiet you start to believe thats all you are.
Seeing students who were outgoing and loud during class I tried to emulate them..thinking, maybe then my teachers would like me. However, if anyone has tried to be someone they’re not, knows it can be draining. I knew who I was, but also knew that people didn’t accept me. When you stop loving all yourself and try to be other people you become unhappy. It took me sometime to say its okay to be me.
So, to my teachers that said I couldn’t I want to let you know that I have, and I don’t think I would have been able to accomplish all I have without being who I am.
I used to think I was the only one, but hopefully if you read this you know that they’re others like you who have succeeded, even if they are not as loud as their neighbor.
Until next time